"Losing my sister, made me think about what defines life. I believe everyone’s destiny is predefined and life purpose is predetermined. My life is now pre-Maple and post-Maple, her death is a scar that will forever remain. Grief is complicated and excruciating. It is helplessness. My way to deal with my grief was to channel my anger and disbelief into honouring her life in my advocacy work. This provides me solace and realization to accept life you must accept death. Mostly it is loss, which teaches us about the worth of people not things. Death shows and helps uncover bigger purposes and creating semblance. Upon reflection the puzzle pieces fit. I recognize that big events contribute to life, but we cannot live our lives to build our resumes, or to just focus on buying stuff or getting to a certain level. We cannot let our milestones overshadow the moments that come between them. Each life stage, like my wedding, brings about its continued losses as we carry on without her. In one moment, I am moving my way through life on a mission, with my family, to work on our non-profit activities. The next and usually in private, wanting to cry over the sheer loss of why she is no longer with us. I have learned though, that I am and will always be an older sister. And I have learned that I like it that way. My sister is a part of who I am to the core of my being and I will never get away from that. She was an integral part of my development; years that are known to significantly shape me for a lifetime. As I carry on, I feel that she is continuing to influence and walk along side of me. I can find comfort in that. I remind myself of it fondly. Grief is a new way of looking at life. It opens the door of understanding to the preciousness of humanity. It has caused me to look closer at the everyday miracles that are often taken for granted. I attended my first funeral at the age of five and worked on smaller scale community projects, I never thought those events or projects would lead me to the path I am on today. I will say that everyone is interconnected and that you do not need to experience the same kind of loss to feel empathy for another human. This is the beauty of humanity, but I feel that people forget to show up for one another, when it is time to show up. I feel it is our duty as humans, especially Kaurs to show up for a fellow human. To show support, to champion a bigger cause than ourselves. Giving without expectation to be selfless. To look at the power of love, bonds, and create good in the world. This is to me means being a Kaur. Since Maple’s passing, the people and the process I have chosen to heal with, this journey has been about handling the biggest challenge of my life. When I use my voice, advocate for her justice, honour her legacy, focus my energy on the non-profit in her name it is healing, but it also honours my sister who lived, I honour myself who lives. It makes me understand to invest time and effort into relationships, and not waste time on judgement and harshness."